Sunshine Day

I've got that Brady Bunch song Sunshine Day stuck in my head. It's so bright and sunny here this morning. It's also supposed to be in the mid 80s today. Craziness.

I've been working crazy overtime at the PD since two of my coworkers have been out on maternity leave and an ATV accident respectively. After nine months of training, I was all excited to complete training. The funny thing is once you clear training and you are on your own, you're suddenly like, "Fuck... I don't know if I have any clue what I'm doing." When I took my job as a dispatcher, I had very little appreciation or respect for how difficult this job can be. It's very much like a juggling act where the guy starts with two balls and then they keep throwing in more to see how many he can handle at one time. Sometimes, you've got way too many balls in the air and you're hoping they don't all come crashing down. Overall though, I work with some very cool people and thus far my experiences have been good. Also, I'm enjoying having one job for what is likely the first time in my life since I was 18.

I met a man about two weeks ago now. I've been dating here and there for some time now, but I've fallen into this relationship effortlessly and it almost feels too easy. After dating in this city for so many years, I'm so bitter and jaded that nothing seems real anymore. It's very hard to let your guard down and just trust someone. Our work schedules are not quite in synch, but I've been able to spend several wonderful days with him thus far and he seems like a sweet, fun, sexy guy. Oh yeah, he's latin too and hotter than a volcano. After going to my friend's wedding last week, it definitely stirred up feelings of "I want this too! I want the fairy tale." (Thank you Pretty Woman and my sisters who watched and wore out 3 VHS tapes of that movie.) In some weird way, I think it might be possible with this guy. My only other long term relationship started this way as well. I fell into it very quickly and it just felt right. I'm trying not to over think this and enjoy it for what it is right now. Hopefully, my OCD won't ruin this for me.

It is Gay Pride week here in San Francisco. The film festival is in full swing and I am going to catch a movie tonight and on Thursday. Sunday is parade day and I will be making my popular Pride Margaritas. Last year was a total blast and I look forward to this year being the same. Gay Pride here isn't so much about being gay, but about spending the day with good friends and recognizing the fact that we can live our lives proudly, openly, and comfortably. It's what makes this city so talented, amazing, and sexy.

Cuidate.